Well so I just got the news that my mom passed away.. and apparently she'd been dead for weeks, so I'm assuming her body was decomposing during that time- and I'm aware bodies decompose within days.. I haven't been able to go back home to Canada yet to get answers (I'm just finishing midterms at Uni before finding a weekend to have her funeral and cremate her) but I don't know, I guess I just wanted to kiss and hug her one last time- but I'm assuming if nobody found her for weeks, the body is most likely bloated and I won't be able to recognize her- so should I just go ahead and have her cremated? It sucks you know- I keep ringing my mom's phone number and texting her like she'll actually respond- I feel like an idiot. :/ But I don't know- nothing feels the same anymore, and death is fun to watch on LiveLeak- but it all falls into perspective when it happens to you- I miss her, I miss the memes she would send me, or call her when I'm nervous about a test and have her calm me down. She was abusive for a while during her last years of her life.. but she was getting better, I guess I'd rather wear some rose colored glasses and remember the good parts- when we were happy. :) Thank ya, xoxo P.S. Oh that's my pet ladybug named Stacy! I found her crawling on my pink lace panties in my dorm room- so I figured I'd make her a home- she's drinking water right now from a tissue- it's a wonder what Google can teach you, lol!
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